Anonimity vs Vulnerabilty

I wonder if being anonymous prevented your being vulnerable.

How would a name protect you from whats coming? Does being behind the veil change the way people behave/react to you?

hmmm... wats in a name?

complications...

I have heard many people that say life is a very complicated animal...

come to think of it, I say life is simple... people are the complicated animals...

I do not intend to prophesize solitude (although I love it at times)... its just the sheer lack of common sense that seems to be omni-prevalent...

The futility of existence stares at you in the face...

Itch time...

Heard of the 7 year itch??

Well, i have heard of others too..

the 6 month itch, the one year itch, the 7 year itch, the 10 year itch, the sweaty itch, the horny itch, the naughty (B)itch...

hmmm... so many itches... so little to scratch...

The domination of love....

Spent a not so eventful weekend with a bunch of relatives...

Apart from the mundane process of spending time and eating together, I did get an opportunity to observe some people in their truest colors...

for instance, the husband of a dear one turned out to be an extremely short tempered, male chauvinistic, however good hearted man - quite an aberration from the fun loving, goon natured, respect every one image that he had earlier created...

I found this quite shocking and did not make any effort to hide my surprise from the woman at the receiving end of this man's fury... and this is what i heard from her...

He is extremely short tempered and loses it quite easily, there have been times he has also forgotten that he is addressing me in public... However, he is good at heart and means no harm. I have known this from experience.

Thats why I love him and am ready to accept him for what he is. My love for him dominates my other feelings and hence, whatever else i go through is trivial...

Cant help wondering....

Tears...

No one is worth your tears, and the only one who is, will never make you cry...

There was a time i used to revere statements like this one...

Cant help smiling....

Today as I heard your voice

Was rummaging through a sash of old memories... and bumped into a wonderful lil peiceof poetry i had once received.

Here goes...


Today as I heard your voice
Today as I spoke to you
I believe I just dreamt of us
And our life together…


For then.. I saw a baby play,
And trouble his parents with a mischievous look
And the parents give a defeated smile
And kiss……


I passed by the coffee shop
New married couples nudge around
With eyes so lost and heads
On each other’s arm…


Today I was strolling at home
And saw my parents look at me
With a smile which seemed to say
I know what its like to dream…. Of togetherness


U know…I could dream of togetherness
For all my life unto my death
If just a dream could do this to me
How would it be, when it for real...

WONDERFUL....

Assumptions

It is amazing how people just assume...

and the range of assumptions seems to only be limited by their own imagination... to add to the misery, people expect you to understand that they had assumed what they did and give them the space to react and blow up because you do not seem to fulfill those assumed expectations...

I have assumed at times too... and I have only been rewarded with misery and disappointments... not to mention, all the effort that goes into sorting out the consequent confusions and heart burns...

Assumptions and expectations, truly the parents of all the misery that seems to exist... and beyond...

Another Day

Yet another day begins in what i want to call a life...

there is so much to do... so much to think...

thinking about thinking, i have been seeing a lot (more) pain and death in my thoughts recently...

alas... there is too much to do... too much to live...

I guess I'll die another day...

A Comeback

Yes... Thats wat it is... a comeback... after a really long break...

It has been a long time since i last blogged... a time when too many things happened...

events, revelations, efforts, disappointments, confrontation, choices, happiness, sadness, unpassionate madness, change...


most striking revelation of them all,

I am not a blogger becuase, i want to blog... i was just trying to FIT IN...

What a shame...

there better be a change.

sure there will be a change.